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How I feel About 2024's Syawal

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Assalamualaikum everyone! Was supposed to continue writing my post about abah, but I was too occupied with many many things. Anyways, selamat hari raya to all of you! Alhamdulillah dapat beraya with the whole family again this year. Yesterday we took a family photo with everyone's in. Sebab our first Syawal tak complete pun. So yesterday after maghrib semua bersiap with our main outfit like pagi raya gittew and took few photos hihi. 2024's Syawal?  I happy. But surely everything hits different now without abah. No more ketupat anyaman dari abah. No more laughing and joking around during salam session. We were all crying haha. It was a very gloomy morning for all of us. Kalau abah ada, mesti abah busy sebab cucu cucu dia semua makin macam-macam perangai haha. Botak kepala atok! We visited one house that morning, then terus pergi kubur ziarah abah. Sedekahkan bacaan surah Yassin, balik rumah, and that's it. We changed our outfit. Pastu semua tidur haha.  Masa kat kubur abah,

Abah (Pt 5)

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Assalamualaikum. Walaupun abah dah tak ada, Ida rasa Ida tetap nak ceritakan pasal abah kat sini. Masa mula-mula abah warded, yang mana puncanya bila oxygen abah terlalu rendah selepas buat biopsy di PPUM hari tu, Ida masih in denial phase. Ida memang tak post/share kepada sesiapa or dekat mana-mana medium. Ida diam. Sebab bagi Ida, apa pun sakit yang abah alami, abah mesti akan sembuh. Padahal kelulusan sains. Padahal Ida belajar semua ni masa study dulu. Tapi tu lah, Ida tak percaya abah ada cancer. Abah pulak selalu menampakkan diri abah kuat, seolah-olah abah tak sakit. Bila abah nampak kuat, lagi Ida percaya yang abah tak sakit pun sebenarnya. Masa kawan abah datang ziarah, abah cerita semuanya dari awal sehinggalah macam mana abah boleh warded dekat kawan abah tu. Masa tu, abah kata "Aku ingatkan TB, batuk teruk, doktor pun ingat TB. Macam-macam test dah buat, tak dapat TB. TB taknak aku, kanser yang nak aku." Abah cakap sambil ketawa besar. Masa ni Ida senyum je. Tapi